L is for Life. Something you only learn the value of as you grow older.
It is a shame when you are younger that you dont really appreciate the value and importance of life and making the most of it until its too late.
I didnt really do much with mine when I had the opportunity, wasnt really bothered about exams, flitted around in crappy jobs and never really achieved anything. I did however want to be a mum and remember pestering Rich every year from the age of 16 that I wanted a baby, he was far too sensible though and made me wait!
It wasnt really until I became a mum that I started to realise the importance of life, suddenly I didnt feel good enough so I decided it was time to make something of myself. I started university when Jade was a year old and juggled motherhood, studying for my degree and working as much as I could. I got the opportunity to visit Africa which made me reflect on life more and realise what was important and what wasnt.
Sadly as time went past I forgot the lessons I had learnt and started taking life for granted again. But Life had other plans and it decided to bring me back to my senses. We decided to try for another baby, and i thought that we would catch straight away but we didnt, a year later we were still trying, a lesson not to take life for granted.
Eventually I gave birth to Sofia and our journey through life continued. I suddenly started to realise that life was passing us by without realising so decided I wanted to complete our family straight away so we tried for Richie. Again life sent us a reminder and after the initial excitement over the easiness of getting pregnant, we lost our baby at 7 weeks.
I fell pregnant again straight away and was not so complacent about life this time. After Rich got his diagnosis life suddenly became very precious and now I often sit and think about how quickly life is passing us by. I am reminded about that song "Sunscreen" by Baz Luhrmann
"Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth, oh nevermind,
you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. "
How true that is!!! Youth is certainly wasted on the young!