Todays F post is dedicated to the future!
What exactly is the future all about? When I was a little girl I often wondered about the future, you do when you are little don't you. I never imagined that at 7 my dad would die in front of me or that I would go a bit off the rails as a teenager. I just thought life would be like the fairytales, Meet your prince, get married, have children, live happily ever after. You dont think about the challenges that life has to throw at you along the way.
I also had a clear picture in my head about what I was going to be. I was going to be a Paramedic and rush to 999 emergencies in an ambulance and help people. I even did work experience at the ambulance station and loved every minute of it then saw a uni course that would help me qualify, but mum said no, we couldnt afford for me to go to university (and being the youngest of 5 she was reluctant to let me go) so there and then my future changed direction.
I never imagined at the age of 15 I would meet the man of my dreams and fall madly in love. I never imagined 17 years later we would still be together with 3 beautiful children and the most fantastic relationship. So I found my prince but he wont marry me, thats fine by me, we are happy as we are, but its another part of my "future" that has changed.
So here I am, 31 years old, a mum of 3 with a teaching degree (very far removed from my paramedic plans) that has been useless to me so far, waiting to hear back from college about moving in a different direction (midwifery) and still wondering what the future will hold. So much has happened since I was little that shaped me into the person I am today but so much is still the same.
Perhaps in 30 years time I will still be wondering what the future will hold for me and my family or maybe I will be contented in life and have done everything I always wanted to do. Who knows, but without the past being the past it was then the future there is now would be very different! (well done if you understand that last sentence!!)
This blog is my view and feelings whilst watching my Fiancé going through chemotherepy treatment for ALTCL non hodgkins lymphoma.
Not only did I understand the last sentance, but I was thinking it before I read it. I dont really remember your dad, but remember he had a beige Austin Alegro car?...Why I remember that, I dont know!....Great post.
ReplyDeleteI completely understand that last sentence. I wanted to be a doctor when I was younger. If medical school had accepted me, I never would have met my husband or have the 2 wonderful children that I do.
ReplyDeleteVery inspiring post!
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