Yesterday morning we went back to the hospital for a consultant appointment. Rich is still getting a nagging ache in his shoulder so enough was enough and I called the chemo day unit for an appointment.
Walking back through those yellow doors into the waiting area brought back all those old feelings of waiting for test results, chemotherapy, blood tests and the like. It's amazing how quickly you forget those feelings and also how quickly they come back when you see an object that triggers it.
So in we walk and Rich is sent to the beds to wait. The consultant comes to talk to him and it was obvious that Rich was nervous as he just wont stop talking! He suggested bloods and a scan to check the shoulder area. Bloods were taken there and then but its now a waiting game for the scan.
I really thought (perhaps naively) that once we had the last scan that we would be free of cancers grip, free to get on with living our life as a family, but it seems that cancer is not yet ready to let go of its grip on our lives!
So here we are....waiting for the scan date...waiting to find out if its back....waiting.....